Not only should you be angry, you should be furious. For many of us in this society, a long time ago, the misguided adults in our childhoods forced us to deny, suppress, disown, denigrate, turn our back on, and in some cases, attempt to kill off, the childhood aspects of ourselves.
It was not contextualized this way, in fact, we were told the opposite. We were told that killing off our child self made us good and virtuous. We were told it was necessary, and we were told it was for our own good. It wasn’t. It never was, and it never will be. ‘Growing up’ is not, and never should have been about:
Suppression, denial, stoicism, emotional numbing, emotional neglect and abuse, forcing ourselves to do things we don’t want to do, forcing ourselves to say things we don’t want to say, forcing ourselves to adopt a fake sense of responsibility until it sticks, and we are convinced it is genuinely a part of us, forcing ourselves to pretend we are happy when we are actually angry, or so sad our heart feels like it has been shattered into a million pieces, forcing ourselves to care about things we don’t care about, forcing ourselves to adopt ideals we don’t care about, forcing ourselves to like things we don’t like, forcing ourselves to go to school when we don’t want to, forcing ourselves to go to University when we don’t want to, forcing ourselves to work when we don’t want to, forcing ourselves to marry when we don’t want to, forcing ourselves to have children when we don’t want to, forcing ourselves to spend time with people we don’t want to, forcing ourselves to say yes when we mean no, say no when we mean yes, forcing ourselves to identify with what the people we find ourselves surrounded by tell us we are, or should be, forcing ourselves to deny so many aspects of ourselves that we become a mere, flimsy, shadow of a being; a grotesque simulation of the soaring, joyous powerhouse of life and vibrancy we were meant to be. I am explicitly stating here that I consider that the prevalent methodology we have of socializing the children of planet earth in the 21st century is analogous to spiritual rape.
Our parents did not know any better, because they had the same, or worse, done to them. If we are all in the same boat, we are all victims, and if we are all victims, this vastly destigmatizes ‘victim mentality’. Until people realize that at best, their authentic self has been severely assaulted, and they take affirmative action to reverse and ameliorate the effects of this assault, they are a victim. Reclamation of self ameliorates victimhood, as does authenticity. If you are carrying through your life all of the parts of yourself you chose, consciously or unconsciously, to suppress, or others forced you to suppress, you are walking wounded, and will know suffering, in this life or the next. Denial will create the same result. You are, in the vast overwhelming majority of cases, not who you were meant to be. Our society and it’s repugnant way of socializing people reduces us to mere holograms; illusory phantoms.
Only we can save ourselves, there is nobody else going to do it for us.